Love & Dreams

Dont Pretend With Me - Be Real

Don't do me any favors.
Matter of fact why don't you do yourself a few.Your presence ain't nobody's blessing.
I've got plenty of other things that I could do.Oh no, not another excuse.
Your tired silly games for me are just no use.So won't you,
Please, talk to me like you actually want to.
Not like you have to.Or won't you just go on and leave me.
You know, leaving me is the least that you could do.

You could have spared me so much misery and told me you just wanted a friend.'cause believe me, there's a difference when you mean it and when you pretend.Or was I just your habit.
'cause I know a habit is a hard thing to break.
But won't you spare me a little mercy, there's only so much that I can take.
So won't you,
Please, talk to me like you actually want to.
Not like you have to.Or won't you just go on and leave me.
You know, leaving me is the least that you could do.

There's a song that's inside of my soul

The one that I've tried to write over and over again

I lift my hands and pray maybe you will understand someday

We can't play this game anymore

Things just can't go on like before

Let me admit I made a mistake

Sometimes it may seem like I just don't care

We awoke from our dream

Things are not always what they seem

Please don't waste your time feeling hurt

We've been through a lot together

You know that life will still go on

That doesn't mean my love still isn't strong

All your feelings so deep inside

It was then that I realized

That forever was in your eyes

The moment I saw you cry

There is part of me that wants an answer

And part of me that doesn't want to know

Part of you that I am in love with

And the part that I am willing to let go

This is a delicate unraveling

Now and then I find pieces on the floor

Tiny little bits that tell me

Maybe I shouldn't do this

Or love you anymore

Before you drive me away

Take a good look at me

I wish the best for you

Every time you go thru this

And when you finally don't

I wonder what will make you happy

I wonder what you'll do with it all

I have a picture in my head

Somehow still I don't understand

I'm glad you let me know before it was too late

That I'm just your latest mistake

I take blame and I am at shame

And in spite of what is right

Far beyond what she'd except

When the moon begs the question

Will you have the answer yet?

Genuine Mind

There is a place in my mind, a place were I love to hide. A place where Ill always be satisfied. A place inside where I possess a different kind of pain.

I go inside this place to live vitality free from physically existing. I go to a place where you can never reach, to be un-breached by an uncertain reality.

Scream at me! Throw your hate at me with all your might. Scared to be honest, to be real with me? I dont stagger around on this earth pretending to be whats not within me.

Look into my eyes and see that I am free! I can in every way, feel all the pain thats tangled inside of me. Another new day, silence overwhelms my mind. Silence is the true friend that never betrays.

I was too blind to see others sorrow and dishonesty. To blind to see the emptiness and the pointless lies of their lives.

Tears that bleed. My dream is dying, but just look the other way. My life is ripping your heart out and destroying my pain.

I wonder why god lets me walk through this place Contemplating life through my cold blanket eyes. Final thoughts rush through my mind as I see whats to come. All this desire built up inside, I dont want to conceal it any more.

I want to express myself and say whats genuinely on my mind. As I watch the sun decease across the sky, I try and break the lies before the die in the public eye.

Sometimes it seems as though Im losing touch. Nothing you can say now will faze me. And when youre dying lying right next to me Ill realize that I will not make it further on my own, I need you!

Falling for the best of you & the worst of me!

This is the same old song, the one where I do it all wrong…..
Here I am, contemplating again, why I'm wearing the scars that cry with blacken tears

Over and over your blood covers me, it all falls back to me… my knees hit the floor and its easy to see that I have been so arrogant.
I buried my heart in the sand so that I wouldn't leave it in your hands
Its killing me that I am to blame

Show your mercy, I've lost myself among the dead
The stars fall upon your face from a million miles away, like me they're falling for the best of you and the worst of me.
I'm asking for a second chance praying that you'll understand

Those words will never change, those words you use to say
Here I am broken again, but then you show me that its you that's killing me
I will scream and yell just so you'll hear me, do you hear me, do you see the tears on my face

Your caught up in protecting what you think is true but you forget to see the danger that is surrounding you.
I don't appreciate what you say behind my back, but its ok because I don't need apologies and I don't fall for sympathy, this will be the last time I kiss you goodbye

You left me with only a scar across my back.
These are the days when I will say all my yesterdays are only mere memories, I am drowning in all the nightmares that stay when you leave

I wont stop because there is a chance, a slim chance that you'll start listening
Like a song, everything will soon end, do you know where you'll be then?

The moon is full tonight and now there's someone different sparkling in your eyes.
I am protecting myself by never saying how I feel, how I truly feel about the nightmares I have come to know from you..